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Random Ramblings # 39 – Playing Catch up

I feel like I’m always playing catch up in my life… catching up to the people from school, the people from Kota and subsequently IIT, people who just graduated out from college and are doing really well for themselves.. Just constantly trying to figure out how to be part of the ‘It’ crowd again, the one which knows where it is and where it has to go.

I measure these things in a huge variety of ways, be it monetarily, what people are doing or have done academically or career wise. I constantly feel that I am under achieving in each and every sector and that keeps bringing me down. Keeps making me feel like I lost the plot somewhere and that just sucks.

Looking forward I have a plan but I’m not really sure if that is what I want to do with my life, I mean yeah I love the markets and finance etc etc but for life? I’m not sure, I don’t really know. Granted I’m trying (barely) for CFA and have to get out of Accenture by the end of June next year, that however is the only thing I have got clear in my head at this point of time. Been trying to read the book The 7 habits of highly effective people by Steven Covey and it certainly helps, let’s just hope it continues to do so, keep falling asleep in the middle of the damn thing, (listening to it on audio book so reading is inaccurate) .

It talks about being happier with ones self and the things one can control cause they are the ones which make a difference and how important it is to see ones self in a positive light and it has definitely helped.

As for how I’m going to play catch up I don’t really know for now. Have a small kernel of a plan in my mind lets just hope it grows into something substantial and helps in the long run.

Heres to a positive future. Cheers.

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Random Ramblings # 37 – Big dreams

When I was younger, I was always told that aim for the best,  the most unachievable thing like the top of the class or the first in a competition or any thing like that, however as a typical young boy I never listened.
Always assuming that its something our parents just tell us to push us harder and we in our heads go ‘Bull shit I’m not going to let them say what they want, old senile people’. OK maybe not so harsh but definitely a similar meaning one did go through all our heads.
Now however I’m beginning to realise that they were absolutely correct. If I never aim too high then I’m not even going to be able to get the prize at second best.
Which is why this late into my adolescent life I have decided to go for it all, in a mad push.
I’m trying for my CFA level one and MBA all in the same year.
I can already here the cries of impossible ringing in my head coming from the most pessimistic part of my mind, the strong partnership however says push yourself cause you have nothing to loose and everything to gain.
Look at Anna hazare he pushed himself at 74 and brought the parliament to their knees, so what excuse can you a young chap have to not live up to your potential and promise or at least try the hardest.

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Random Ramblings # 36 – Too scared

A thought just ran through my mind about my future… yes I have come up with this grand goal of getting my CFA degree etc etc…  but I’m wondering how well does this tie in with what I want to do with my life?
Everyone who knows me knows that eventually I want to start my own business… Had a couple of large scale ideas in my head but I’m not that well funded or connected to pull those of in the first place…
And everybody says that you know what son you need to specialise in something in these uncertain times so that you always have something to fall back on…
I agree with their logic completely and that’s kind of the reason I want to earn the CFA charter (long way to go I know) and maybe even I might have second thoughts again after the second level or something… but one thing is for sure that in my mind this will help me get an Mba and that is something I really want to do….

AARGH!!!! My mind is bouncing all over the place one side to another day it is irritating me…  but one thing is for sure I’m scared and unsure about what to do but am going forward with it anyways… lets just see how the chips fall cause I’m young and have a lot of time to make mistakes… but this expelling of emotions felt nice… expect more along the way

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