Random Ramblings # 39 – Playing Catch up

I feel like I’m always playing catch up in my life… catching up to the people from school, the people from Kota and subsequently IIT, people who just graduated out from college and are doing really well for themselves.. Just constantly trying to figure out how to be part of the ‘It’ crowd again, the one which knows where it is and where it has to go.

I measure these things in a huge variety of ways, be it monetarily, what people are doing or have done academically or career wise. I constantly feel that I am under achieving in each and every sector and that keeps bringing me down. Keeps making me feel like I lost the plot somewhere and that just sucks.

Looking forward I have a plan but I’m not really sure if that is what I want to do with my life, I mean yeah I love the markets and finance etc etc but for life? I’m not sure, I don’t really know. Granted I’m trying (barely) for CFA and have to get out of Accenture by the end of June next year, that however is the only thing I have got clear in my head at this point of time. Been trying to read the book The 7 habits of highly effective people by Steven Covey and it certainly helps, let’s just hope it continues to do so, keep falling asleep in the middle of the damn thing, (listening to it on audio book so reading is inaccurate) .

It talks about being happier with ones self and the things one can control cause they are the ones which make a difference and how important it is to see ones self in a positive light and it has definitely helped.

As for how I’m going to play catch up I don’t really know for now. Have a small kernel of a plan in my mind lets just hope it grows into something substantial and helps in the long run.

Heres to a positive future. Cheers.

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Random Ramblings #28- Scaredy Cat

The way my brain feels right now

Been feeling really nervous since the last few days about my future and am taking it out the way I find best….

What have I been nervous about absolutely EVERYTHING!!!!

These are the questions running through my mind at breakneck speed right now:
1) I wasn’t able to crack IIT is CAT or for that matter any MBA entrance exam going to work out for me?
2) By working in Accenture is it goign to screw up my chances even more?
3) Should I stick it out in Accenture for 2-3 years?
4) How the hell will I discipline myself for CAT this year?
5) I want more money!!!!
6) How bad are my acads? Will it affect my MBA prospects??

that feels better, you know there is just something about putting everything down in writing !

Well now that I feel better off to pondering about the future and working hard at it!!