Random Ramblings #27-School time blues

This post requires a back story…..
It involves going back to school days… days which I left behind me 6 years ago….
Well when I look back to the kind of person I was in school I see that I was the kind of person one would very conveniently call a clingy one… never really had a lot of owe friends in school and was never really part of a group as such… why this happened and why not is something that I have never been able to understand despite trying and have just given up on it cause it pains me to do so because despite everything I still remember school with fond memories and am still fiercely loyal to it… ask my girlfriend of you have any doubts about it…

So this was the little back story… now coming to the main issue….
Today after almost 3 years on Facebook I took a chance and said hi to a person who was a friend in school… and for a person like me immediately all the old insecurities more rushing back…. but most of all an urge remained to ask that person what any wrong in school…. why wasn’t I close to you guys…. out of no other reason other than wanting to better myself… admittedly there is a slight need to closure from my side too…

All this however got me thinking about how one should react in such a situation?
I didn’t give into my itching at this point of time do I hope I never do, however I am fascinated by the situation… the thought running through my mind right now are that does One just start where one left off? Does one actually familiar or will that seem like Someone acting over familiar and a wannabe again? Does one bring up unanswered questions or try to let the past be buried and try to build a new foundation? Does one even try to become friends again or just leave it as a casual emcounter?

So many choices so many doubts…. in the end I guess we will all go with what our guts tell us… but here’s asking what will our gut tell us…

Leave your views in the comments…


Random Ramblings #26- May days

Glancing at the calender I see that march is almost over and April is littered with holidays so should pass by in just the blink of an eye….
That makes my mind wander to the promise that may and June hold….
Finally a period in my life where there will be precious little to do… a time when merely mentioning the possibility for waking up late day after day and still not having to worry about attendance or projects or any other crap…. aah the thought it self warms my heart…
It’s a well deserved break in my opinion…? Having being shuttles from school to the iit factory kota and then the tension of which college and competitive exam results. overwhelming the few days of respite we got…

This is going to be the last chance for me to truly relax before the daily grind encapsulates me…
Let’s hope I make the best of it in any way possible…

life, Life log

Random Ramblings #25- Times just flown by

There is a feeling coursing through me that I’m finding really hard to capture into words… its one which is tinged with a shade of sadness but not sad in its entirety

Recently I took a long hard look at college life and i was satisfied with all that I had done when I took a very shallow look at the past four years, however sitting back and taking a harder more critical look I realized that I have let a lot of goals pass through the cracks, lost in the constant stream of assignments, fests and other activities which make up any well rounded college life

But there are always a few things which every person has, those things which they want to do or achieve just because they admire someone who has done it , to make them a more rounded person overall or any other conceivable reason one can think of but the things I talk about are more deep rooted than say going to a concert and saying hell yeah I’m going to learn the guitar (or maybe for some that may actually be the case) but I guess you get my drift…

So I have now decided to start listing them all and cross them off one by one kind of in the vein of a bucket list yet not that tragic or with that big a timeline in my mind, I am only 21 you know, these things however will be tackled one by one and hopefully not abandoned in the middle however if they cease to interest me or  seem uneccesary then i may just leave them mid way….

(This list will be continuously modified, added to, pruned and prodded so never expect it to remain the same)

1) Learn how to play chess
2) Finish the book Brain Power (Actually do the 12 weeks properly)
3) Cook a perfect risotto
4) Learn tennis
5) Visit Australia and New Zealand
6) Contribute to the Khan Academy
7) Visit Las Vegas

so this is the list so far… keep checking back for changes…..